i just had an urge to post. being away from my blog, i haven't really had any way of expressing my thoughts, so i return.
my thoughts flow with nowhere to go, how do i do this. putting them down is so hard for me.
there are so many things that i want to do. so much i want my life to be, so many i want to know and love.
it's hard, you know? to have that knowledge that i'm held accountable for. to know that He has an opinion that i need to know. at the same time, i am careless and whimsy.
He loves. i don't know how to properly love Him. i don't know how to love a King, which is what He is and it's the title of His children.
i'm learning, i'm living. i'm holding on by a...the hem of His garment. others know more about me than i do. but i'm told that if i get to know Him, i find my identity, the secrets of my heart hidden in His.
life is a mystery to me.
i'm so young, spiritually and physically. growing up seems like it's sneaking up so fast, but it seems like i have such a long time to go, but every time i blink, another chunk of reality is gone. reality: the state or quality of being real; resemblance to what is real; the totality of all things possessing actuality, existence, or essence. reality isn't the word i was looking for, more like time. reality just sounded cooler.
one thing is always certain in a life full of wavering: i am my beloveds and He is mine. i will be a child in His eyes forever...
all creation groans
all creation yearns
can i do anything less?
-audra lynn
[side note: this isn't meant for you to understand, but for me to get these things out for me to understand myself, and if you do understand i commend you, for you probably are one of those mentioned earlier.]
2 comments:
oh, but I do understand.
Love the pictures by the way:)
I do not (but I do) want to forget that He has a heart. and an opinion. and emtions.
I love you.
i know exactly what you mean..
I understand..i feel the same way about some of those things..well probably most of it really lol =D
you are are such an amazing woman! woman of God! you were created as something more than all this [worldly stuff..] and created for something so much bigger than all this! dont EVER thing anything less than that! Just trust and follow God and He will get you where you need to be going and get you there! =D Its amazing, no matter where we are or even where we run to God NEVER leaves us there! =D Be encouraged my sister!
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