days we've been waiting for.

well, todays the big day. not halloween, but the night of worship. yey!!!
did you know that today is actually the day that martin luther (not king, just luther) posted the 95 thesis on the door of the catholic churches and is also know as the reformation celebration?
just a random fact.

procrastination.

i'm tired, and i do not feel like studying chemistry.
this is my form of procrastination.
hum-diddy-dum-bum-bum-flum-cum-dum-do-bop.
i'm tired.
i hope i get to take a nap before the all nighter.
i wish jon foreman were here to sing me to sleep right now.
his fall c.d. is perfect for that.
one day my husband will sing to me.

by the way caitie, this was the song i was thinking of:

instead let there be a flood of justice
an endless procession of righteous living, living
instead let there be a flood of justice
instead of a show
i hate all your show

resurect me.

i am so glad it's finally cold enough to where i have a reason to drink tea and hot coco and things of that nature. not that there's really any need for a reason to drink such things. i think it is exciting to do things out of season. for example: drinking hot drinks in the summer and icys in the winter, jumping around and dancing in worship when the music is really slow, wearing gloves inside, etc. i just burnt my tongue on my tea. ouch.

i love that feeling when you put your nose as close to the tea as you can without wetting your nose and inhale. the wonderful smell, the warm steam. kind of like on cartoons when you see the steam going into their nostrils. i wonder if i look like them.

the setting of my story is great right now. outside the window: the sun is in mid-setting making the tips of the trees glow golden, slightly swaying against the still bright blue sky, leaves scattered on the ground, the essence of late fall. inside the window: me sitting at the computer desk with gloves on, steam emitting from the cup of tea, jon foreman's my love goes free playing in the speakers.

this is the first season of autumn that i have really embraced it and enjoyed it.

i love the honesty and frank-ness that is released in songs. i would like to ride a train someday, before the other industries of transportation overtake train riding.

back to reality. when i start writing or reading, especially when i am listening to music that reflects what i am writing, i drift into this world. like a fantasy world. a world full of creativity, warmth and cold, it's hard to explain. it's kind of like that feeling i get when i get a song. i feel years older. something along those lines.

i am still really excited about the night of worship. i still have alot of stuff to do for my room. i can't wait for Him to show up!!!

oh my goodness. so today i was driving downtown, and this guy just walked out in front of me!!! so i slammed on my breaks (thank God for those things) and stopped before i hit him. as i was hitting the breaks he just stopped. why do we do that?!?! when we see something coming at us, we just stop, pause, then we run. we are strange creatures.

"the moon is a magnet. everyone's at it. everyone's had it. love is a sadness. love is a madness. we are the addicts."
what does this mean?

i just finished my tea and the cup is still steaming.

word with breath so close it warms the ears

i want to stay close to the fire in your eyes.to the burdens of your heart.i don't want to grow cold.so come and set your seal of love upon my heart.love as strong as death.till i'm forever yours.i want to be found in the council of the Lord.with a heart that's after yours.i don't want to grow cold.so come and set your seal of love upon my heart.love as strong as death.till i'm forever yours.all consuming fire of love.come burn away what hinders love.till i am only yours.you are fairer than the sons of men.you stand above them all. how i love you. -cory asbury

i want to be SO close that when He whispers, i feel the warmth of His breath.

He makes me happy :D

cool friends...

"Kasey said...

1.I like Waffles
2.I think the high voice comes with the high awesomeness of God... :)
3.&4.I hope you had a good time while you were there, and I am glad you aren't sad about it :)
5.I have that good feeling that He wants that too!
6.You are a funny awesome unique person. :)
7.I feel ya, but hopefully you can get all the time with Jesus you need.
8.:)Praise God
9.Maybe that's because you are like Moses.... And you're going to lead ALOT of people out of bondage and captivity! :) Think about it...
10.I would say suggest it to William!! :)
11.If I count as people..... I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!! You have alot in you, more than I know....
12.More than I know......
13.Allelujah!
14.Oh yes, The Spirit of God is ganna show up for reals
15.I believe you will.
16.This thought comes into my mind often.....


(Not the thought that your talking about a guy, but the fact other people might think we are talking about guys other than Jesus....)







I love you !!!.... That was a really long comment.

Caitlin said...

cynthia, oh cynthia..I love it when you post. And I believe in you so much. really I do. I do not just say things. You have such tender heart towards the Lord. You are full of vibrant life.
I think high voices on guys are pretty sweet.:) haha..that was my prayer lastnight, "Lord, take me to the throne room!"
I love you and don't you ever doubt it:):):)"

you guys make me smile :D

exceptional facts:

1. i would like some waffle house right about now.
2. matt gilman has a really high voice.
3. i left the big game at half-time.
4. i'm not that disappointed about leaving the game early.
5. i want to walk in the cool of the day with Him and meditate on His glorious splendor.
6. when i post a blog i always try to start the title with a letter i haven't used before.
7. i've had a busy week.
8. He's made a way for me to enter the holy place.
9. every time i take my shoes off at church i think of moses and how God told him to take off his shoes because he was on holy ground.
10. i've wanted to do a song in youth that sings about freedom since before lauren left.
11. i wonder alot if people believe in me.
12. i wonder how much people who do believe in me think i'm capable of.
    
13. i am His and He is mine. that's all that matters...
14. i'm stoked about the all night of worship.
15. i want to see the lightning and hear the thunder and hear the voices and see the living creatures and the 24 elders and see Him on His throne.
16. i think it would be really funny if someone was reading my blog who didn't know me and didn't know i loved Jesus and thought when i wrote 'He' i was actually talking about some random guy i knew.

bye!

more joy...

today is my mommy's birthday. i am going to make her a b-e-a-u-tiful card...she loves home-made stuff. i love birthdays!!!

p.s. i think it is very funny that people who don't often post usually all post on the same day :D

joy!!! haha.

okay, so i was listening to cory asbury's song 'so good to me' and it's amazing:

"i waited patiently upon the Lord
and He inclined and heard my cry
he pulled me up out of the myre clay
He set my feet upon the rock
He gave me beauty for ashes
and joy for my mourning
and praise for heaviness
He put a new song in my mouth
and a crown upon my head
He gave me life forevermore!

He's been so good, so so good to me, Jesus

cause He picked me up and He turned me around
and He placed my feet on the solid ground
hallelujah, hallelujah

i've got love, joy, peace, and righteousness in the Holy Spirit
oh, oh, oh, oh, yeah"

i'm sitting in the office at my house and i decide to listen to cory asbury, already having heard this song, and when it came on, there was the joy of the Holy Spirit was released and i had to stop reading my e.mails and i started singing along and clapping and dancing in my chair. it is awesome!!!! i'm so happy and excited.

HE'S SO GOOD, SO SO GOOD TO ME!!!

i love joy, and i love the One who gives me joy...my Messiah, the lover of my soul.....JESUS!!!!

up. up. and away...swept up by the Holy One

Messiah, المسيح‎, מָׁשִיַח, משיחא :
the Anointed One; the promised and expected deliverer

exploring new possibilities.

alfresco:
in the open air; outdoors

one day that will be me. traveling off with my suitcase.

for approximately the last 2 hours i have been looking over photography colleges/institutes.

(side note: the word institute kind of scares me. that's what they call the places where crazy people live. which might be convenient, seeing as artists are know to be a bit 'off their rockers'.)

anyway, i have come up with some, or one, very probable prospect. i discovered maryland institute college of art. so this one is actually an institute and college all in one! it is 14 hours and 15 minutes (893mi) from my home, which is 50 minutes closer than kansas city. it has a pretty campus. very artsy, of course. here is some sample artwork from current students:















laura oster (photography)





















carrie deidrich (interdisciplinary sculpture)

the one at the top is ben shipley (photography)

i've decided that if i like the student's artwork at a school, mabey that's the school for me. so this will be put into consideration in my thoughts.

will it ever come to pass? God only knows.

sound effect are rocking my socks off.

there are several things that aren't happening that i would like to happen. so my 'wants' are being demolishes, and i pray that my overall will is coming out of the woodwork. i guess i've got it all together. ha. that's a joke :D at least i know the one who does have it all together.

truth is spoken.

"Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as from the Lord, the Spirit."
-2 Corinthians 3:17-18

"Behold, you will call a nation you do not know, And a nation which knows you not will run to you, Because of the LORD your God, even the Holy One of Israel; For He has glorified you."
-Is 55:5-10
(when we become unified with the Spirit, we will move form evangelism to invitation. they will be attracted to a one-level God. and we will be moving from glory to glory and we'll become glory hogs!!! -Kris Valloton)

"For I am jealous for you with a godly jealousy; for I betrothed you to one husband, so that to Christ I might present you as a pure virgin."
-2 Corinthians 11:2

i want to be a glory hog.

the day of the Lord.

i am in the great and awesome days of the Lord and i will pray for it to be on earth as it is in heaven. praise the Lord!!!

click for a sermon by kris valloton on the day of the Lord.

listen,

reality is sickening.

so i'm doing research on human trafficking, suicide, and abortion and the results of this is horrible. it's sad, sickening, and just plain inhumane. i just don't understand how people could do this.

i don't understand.

the sanctity of life needs to be restored.

grace.

beauty in the seasons...

the snow.

this is where i wish to be. sitting in the middle of the path, wearing scarfs, multiple jackets, a hat, etc., with my hot cup of tea that warms me up with every sip, reading....something.

glorious.

kansas city...

Jesus..... i would really like to go to onething this year. please let me go and provide a way....if it's your will.

"may the sight of You be the death of me."
-shane and shane

new world, or rather, new findings.

"Oh stow it, Guv'nor, do stow it," said the Cabby. "Watchin' and listenin's the thing at present; not talking."

- wisdom out of the mouth of the unexpected

i have taken a visit to Narnia through the bound pages of literature, and oh, how wonderful it is. and it is as though no time has passed, just as is within the lines of the story, even though it seems so much has. i will continue to seep into the pages of this world and learn more of the Father through the tellings of another.

just one more.

okay, so i know, three posts in one day...a little extreme, but i'm finding many inspiring lyrics.

Carbon Ribs

John Mark McMillan

A thousand pairs of fiery eyes
Burn like a serpent down the highway 5
As the long amber tail to Los Angeles unwinds
I’ve got this resurrection down inside my skin
But for all my revelating
I just can’t make sense
Our of this gravity we’re in

Cause I’m a dead man now
With a ghost that lives
Within the confines of these carbon ribs
And one day when I’m free
I will sit
The cripple at your table
The cripple by your side

A thousand miles of pain I’m sure
Led you to the threshold
Of my heart’s screen door
To tell me what it is I’m dying for
Gravity comes
Like a cold cold rain
To lead me to the rope again
But someone is standing in my place

Cause I’m a dead man now
With a ghost that lives
Within the confines of these carbon ribs
And one day when I’m free
I will sit
The cripple at your table

And I sit beside you

He's alive::happy day

Your love never fails
By: Jesus Culture

Nothing can seperate
Even if I ran away
Your love never fails

I know I still make mistakes
But You have new mercies for me everyday
Your love never fails

You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
There maybe pain in the night but joy comes in the morning

And when the oceans rage
I don't have to be afraid
Beause I know that You love me
Your love never fails

The wind is strong and the water's deep
But I'm not alone in these open seas
Cause Your love never fails

The chasm is far too wide
I never thought I'd reach the other side
But Your love never fails

You make all things work together for my good

if only, if only...

if i were on facebook, this is what my status would be:

Cynthia wishes the bridegroom fast was still going on!!!!.......and is wanting food :D

#1

Jesus is:

the only Hope.

debilitate me.

surrender: to give (oneself) up, as to the police

ha. i laughed.

cynthia's definition:

surrender: being so devoted to something or someone that your immediate reaction to get more of it or them is to give your all to it or them in return for what it or they have to offer.

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so mabey that's not exactly a definition, but that's what i'm feeling about surrender right now. when i truly have a one on one encounter with the Lord, my first reaction is to give Him everything. i haven't had many of those lately and there are some things i'm needing to surrender....again. but i'm excited about it.

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You're faithful, You're always the same
You're faithful, You never change
You're faithful, You're always good
and though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death
i have no doubt You've already gone ahead
my Fire by night, my Cloud by day
and though ten thousand fall to my right and my left
under the shadow of the Most High i find rest

yepo.

blah, busy day.

Jesus needs more room than this!!!

prolific.

if he really knew what he was saying, would it make a difference?



what's the dumb, Kasey, what's the dumb :D

::more thoughts::

is controversy mandatory..........hold it cynthia.......think positive...He's coming back for you....and He loves you too much to let you dwell on those things....so look into His eyes....get lost in those brilliant eyes....go into them......

deeper...
deepe...
deep...
dee...
de...
d...
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get lost.

great humor!

thoughts:

everyone on the face of the earth should go see fireproff.

bliss.

Oh the joys of drinking warm tea with the soothing thought that several more of these such instances will come to pass with the ever so slowly approaching winter

[and i love it]

breaking down::inside the sounds

i am a temple
at my best, i still deserve to die
but i'll be glorified in this ridiculous mess



-john mark mcmillan