a tribute

^onething '09^

^onething '09^

^onething '09^

^onething '08^

"oh my Lord, to suffer like You do;

it would be a lie to run away."
-jon foreman

this post=tribute to

my notebook

yes, i am officially on my last page.

it's kind of bitter-sweet. i have had this notebook since july 7, 2008, so that makes this thing almost two years old, and yet it contains so much of my life. i have grown so much in the Lord since that first entry. i love looking back over everything that's happened, prophetic words i've received, words from the Lord's heart, and messages that have impacted me. i love the tea tabs. i love the packed pocket in the back. i love the notes from friends. i love being able to say i have the same notebook as osa. i will probably continue to carry it around for now, but for now the search for a notebook that can take this one's place...which will be a hard thing to replace ;)

and so the hunt begins.

puting my mind on a page.

"that’s what we as musicians walk around every day looking for. the feeling. with me it usually starts in my fingertips and shoots straight to my heart. it takes over and for a second i don’t know what to do. it’s an explosion. sometimes i want to throw my guitar down and crush it to death. sometimes i cry my eyes out. sometimes i just look over at one of my friends and smile. because they feel it too. i know they do.

it doesn’t only happen with music either. you never know what’s going to make it happen or when it will happen, you just love it when it does. i think it’s the best when it happens in a song, of course. i love that it doesn’t happen all the time. it makes you work harder.

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i feel really uncomfortable and unbelievably nervous standing on stage in front of any amount of people, but you put a guitar on me and i could care less if there are 100,000 people out there. i don’t care if i hit a bad note. i don’t care if my guitar is out of tune. i can’t really explain it, but when i’m playing guitar it’s like i feel so powerful. i feel like i’m (slightly) in control (but incredibly out of control) of something that is so much bigger than i could ever be. like i’ve tapped into this other world."

-james duke (john mark mcmillan's lead guitarist)

he just explained two of the hardest things to explain for me as a musician...

go james duke!

p.s. he is in a band called all the bright lights. i think you would like it. you should go listen :)

click here.