'stirrings'

so today was my first meeting at the.....drum roll.....dothan house of prayer!!! (and the crowd goes wild!!!!) God really showed up. it's finally starting. i'm so excited to be apart. so when i checked my mail today, this is what i read in a letter from mike bickle concerning onething:

this will be the eighth year we have hosted the onething conference. years from now, i believe we will look back at this year’s onething as a defining moment in the global prayer movement. i don’t think you will want to miss it and, thus, i strongly encourage you to do whatever it takes—even change your plans—to join us.

so if that isn't a confirmation of me going to onething this year.....then i'm a platypus. seriously. i'm incredible excited about everything the Majestic Glory is doing! He makes me so happy! He has a made a way to enter the holy place.

i'm not alive to live this ordinary life.

and i will try
to see this world i live in
with Your eyes
to love this world You've given
with my life
-starfield

state of me:

renewed, and urging to renew the world.

on the greener grass side of life...

life isn't feeling very green right now, so i focus on the greener grass side:

if it is going to be this cold....snow should come along with it.
i feel called to the little things.
i make decisions...not always the right ones...or are they????
God works in strange and mysterious ways....for sure.
i'm going to go and eat fish sticks and potato wedges.
the conference starts tonight.
i hope it lives up to its name.
i'm ready for renewal.

let the branch of the Lord be seen as beautiful and glorious...israel

so i got my shots today. they were painful, but not as bad as i was expecting.
i have a question, why do we get shots if we believe that God is our healer?????
just a thought. i would like your thoughts.
i can't wait to return to ihop.
anyway, i really am feeling the importance of spending time with Him, i don't know why it takes me so long for things to sink in, but i really need Him. He is faithful to show me that over and over again, because i'm so unfaithful over and over again. He wants me to sit with Him in the secret and give Him all of me and for me to request what i want. He wants to give me the nation, the govenment, He wants the knowledge of Him to cover the nations as the waters cover the sea, He wants my family, He wants my school, He wants me...

me.

cwazy me.

so i am trying out for the play high school musical. if i make it, this will be my life for the next 4 months. i am so excited about it and i hope i make it!!!

wow, 3 sentences i thought i would never say :D

if i do make it, it will take up a bunch of time, but it will be incredibly fun. i'll be able to make new friends and hopefully talk to some people about Jesus. so today was day 1 of tryouts and i think i did pretty well with the singing part, but not so much on the dancing. there were 95 people trying out...craziness. let's just hope that all of the really good dancers can't sing at all, hehe, just kidding....kind of :D so i'm looking forward to auditions tomorrow which will be for the lead roles and the last day of auditions will be monday unless i get a call back (crossing my fingers).

i'm happy :D

(smile)

he's going to be even better than them. God has my love story planned out, and i can't wait!!!!!

{conclusion}

most guys are disgusting, so i am even more thankful for the respectful guy friends i have!!!

so i've noticed that i am more compassionate for people who have lost hope or people who don't see any value in their lives than i do for anyone else. my heart breaks for them so easily. there are so many depressed and hurting, in our generation especially. i am going after His heart for these people.

tonight's the scavenger hunt...fun, fun.....yey!!!

[time]

time:
the system of those sequential relations that any event has to any other, as past, present, or future; indefinite and continuous duration regarded as that in which events succeed one another

resplendent:
very bright or shining; splendid

i like these words. time seems to be moving faster and faster...which i was told would happen as i grew older, but didn't realize they were telling the truth. it didn't seem like that was possible. how is that possible? mabey that's why a thousand of our years seems like a second (not literally, just guessing) to God. he's been around forever, which would make Him really old. and if time goes faster as you get older, then mabey that's why..........interesting. oh, and in result of my procrastination of studying for chemistry, i got a 69 on the test. sad.

starting from the top

"when we show kindness in response to evil we have marked a group of people for a visitation of God."
-bill johnson

dear kasey and caitlin,

i love you guys. i haven't seen you guys in four days and i hope you two are well. i would like to hear you guys' opinions on the election. just to let you know, the choir competition went well. we made 2's which is kind of like making b's, but that's okay. i'm excited about seeing you guys this weekend!!!

love,
me

more facts:

1.the fast is over.
2.the election's over.
3.i am privileged.
4.i know alot about myself.
5.there is still alot about myself that i don't know.
6.i like people telling me what they know about me.
7.i missed being at church wednesday.
8.i was glad to meet with mrs. L and others.
9.the unknown sounds are resounding.
10.i want to hear them.
11.if i knew more about Him i'd......hmmmm.......

recognizing seasons

-introspection: observation or examination of one's own mental and emotional state, mental processes, etc.; the act of looking within oneself

"O LORD, You have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; You understand my thought from afar. " -Psalm 139 1-2

exravagant devotion:

is what He wants us to have.
i was praying yesterday asking God what He wanted the kids to sing to Him and i felt like He said He just wants us to sing our love for Him, all the time.
that made me happy.
so it's finally november. 2 1/2 days till the election. oh God, be our Messiah.
His is good, He is faithful, He is God.
this month is going to be good.