[so]und effects

my first research paper will be on the effects of music on the mind and body. i am actually finding that this may be fun. i enjoy writing if it's on something i'm interested in, and this sounds pretty interesting. i have added another book to the list to read: this is your brain on music: the science of a human obsession by daniel j. levitin. this will be intriguing and fun :D thought: sometimes i miss the way i used to be, but i'm glad i change, cause if i was the same all the time, i think i would be boring.

no one.

no one who's hope is in the Lord will ever be put to shame
amen!

Jesus is flipping awesome. He renewed my hunger and love tonight. i love the people i'm around and i'm really excited about what God is doing...everywhere.

YEY!

re[pet]ition

so i was looking at a post from october 11 and i was asking God to make a way for me to go to onething. He does answer prayer. i needed that reminder. this is the first time i've heard matt gilman sing holy in the prayer room. so i think i've said something like this before, but i want to see the lighting and feel the thunder. it would be the coolest thing in the world to have a vision of the throne. even thinking about it makes me love His majesty and splendor and wonder...i want to hear the voices proceeding from His throne. yepo. so dhop is continuing and today was great. i wasn't really tired....at all (even though i went to bed at 11...something) i was really able to hear His voice today. i was listening, which helps :D

be blessed because He is holy. He is full of amazement.

[red]eemed

uproar: a state of violent and noisy disturbance, as of a multitude; turmoil; a condition of noisy excitement and confusion; tumult

ex[press]ion

i just had an urge to post. being away from my blog, i haven't really had any way of expressing my thoughts, so i return.
my thoughts flow with nowhere to go, how do i do this. putting them down is so hard for me.
there are so many things that i want to do. so much i want my life to be, so many i want to know and love.
it's hard, you know? to have that knowledge that i'm held accountable for. to know that He has an opinion that i need to know. at the same time, i am careless and whimsy.
He loves. i don't know how to properly love Him. i don't know how to love a King, which is what He is and it's the title of His children.
i'm learning, i'm living. i'm holding on by a...the hem of His garment. others know more about me than i do. but i'm told that if i get to know Him, i find my identity, the secrets of my heart hidden in His.
life is a mystery to me.
i'm so young, spiritually and physically. growing up seems like it's sneaking up so fast, but it seems like i have such a long time to go, but every time i blink, another chunk of reality is gone. reality: the state or quality of being real; resemblance to what is real; the totality of all things possessing actuality, existence, or essence. reality isn't the word i was looking for, more like time. reality just sounded cooler.
one thing is always certain in a life full of wavering: i am my beloveds and He is mine. i will be a child in His eyes forever...

all creation groans
all creation yearns
can i do anything less?
-audra lynn

[side note: this isn't meant for you to understand, but for me to get these things out for me to understand myself, and if you do understand i commend you, for you probably are one of those mentioned earlier.]