after the silence comes the rain...

one day every tongue will confess and every knee will bow
and pledge allegiance to Your name, Jesus
until then i will sit behind these walls
of disunity and disarray
i will beg for mercy
i will cry out for grace
until that day when these confining walls com crashing down
...remind me of your hope and your promise that
one day every tongue will confess and every knee will bow
and pledge allegiance to Your name, Jesus

::one word from You can shatter a thousand lies::

i need to hear You in the silence now.

Lord. i am not humble or meek or any of those things you call me to be right now. help me be a servant. i need You. plain and simple. so why do i make it so complicated? do i want what You want? where do all of my wants come from? You or me? do i create this confusion i'm left in or is it real? i think to much, or is that what i'm supposed to do?

help.

i know i'm in this state for a reason. is this Your way of humbling me, of making me realize how i need You so much?



so go the sounds of breaking down.




sincerely,
Your daughter
(who can't stand how things are going)

ahhh.

the experiences that await me in college life.



(wherever that may take place.)

the dreams are coming!

fasting works. yey God, boo devil. this has been one of the best weeks ever, as i'm sure you guys can concur. i'm learning to listen, better than ever. over the summer i got the book the lost art of practicing His presence from some awesome people and it is going to be really coming to use during this fast! i'm so greatful to have older, wiser people who have gone through the part of the journey i'm going through now, and can give me pointers directly from the mouth of the Holy One of Israel. i still long for more, and i know it's coming. i need to give it all away to receive it. boo-ya, i'm excited!

once again:

according to recent polling, 66% of people (out of three) change their favorite color every day. And 33% (out of three) change their favorite color every year.